A Possible Return?

Greetings folks! Long time no see eh?


I doubt there's anyone still following this since it's basically been 1 and a half years since I posted anything. I guess blogging isn't my calling. I must say though that much has happened in that time.

Basically a month after my last post (so, November 2008) I became extremely sick. I lost a significant amount of weight and was dealing with terrible bowel pain. I didn't see my doctor as often as I wanted to because he was situated back in my hometown and I needed to work to pay rent. This led to nearly three months of dealing with these terrible symptoms until I finally decided to take a leave of absence from my job to figure out what was wrong with me.

Turned out what was wrong with me was something serious. Around the second week of January '09 I was diagnosed with Crohn's Disease, a disease that currently can only be treated for and not cured. Treatment for the disease caused me to make some changes about the direction I was going.

I decided to abandon my decision to return to the RCC that September and instead move back home to Kitchener and apply to Conestoga College for a program similar (and perhaps more interesting) to what I was previously studying for. What I had anticipated as a year to get rid of the restlessness that made me decide to take a year off from school turned into one spent in doctors' offices, blood work, and medications that merely made things bearable. I honestly did not believe I would be ready to return to college in late August based on the way I was feeling.

I have managed to get through my first semester in my new program without too much difficulty but due to some complications caused by the Crohn's, it was decided that surgery during the holiday break was needed. The Crohn's infected bowel was removed and a fistula on my bladder was fixed. Because of this surgery I've missed 2 weeks of class up to this point. Surgery is a very draining experience and I certainly hope it was worth it. If all goes well I'll hopefully have a few years without dealing with the Crohn's symptoms. I'm hoping for several years.

Right now though I'm still kinda bummed out that I'm not feeling 100% yet and kinda worried about the workload I'll be experiencing once I get back to classes. The professors know my situation and I believe I can handle the material but I just don't know if I'll have the energy to do it. It's a frustrating feeling.

One thing I am very appreciative of is all the support my friends and family have been giving me. To be honest, there are still some people that don't know about my situation. My mother didn't want me to broadcast to the world about it but I just feel like this is a good outlet for me.

Damnit! Sneezing and coughing hurt like a bitch right now...

In the end, I know I gotta keep looking at the positive things and I don't believe I'm truly worried. Venting like this certainly helps.

So, while I'm unsure when I'll be posting again I at least remember that this thing actually exists and I might put some use to it once again.